5/21/2008
Worried Mom
Well, I'm having one of those wierd mom days...like I can't do anything right and I feel guilty for leaving my baby 4 days a week to work. I enjoy my job and need to work for the money and the insurance but it's so hard to rationalize the time I am away from something I love and enjoy so much!! This week Aunt Mary is gone on a vacation, which she totally deserves!! Grandma Colleen and Grandma Vickie have been watchin Addy bugs for us....Thanks tons! You guys are the best! Addy totally enjoys them and I can tell they enjoy doing it as well....as long as it's only once in a while :0) So, just had to vent for a minute. It's a really hard balance to figure out and I hope I can get things squared away so that I can only work 2 days a week or just stay home and be a mom...especially when we have another baby is a few years! :0) Well, not a lot going this weekend since it's supposed to rain and be yucky! I want to go bikin but we will have to see. I think me, mom and Addy will go put flowers on Nancy's grave...I just hate it cuz I fall into a deep depression for the remainder of the day...I feel so bad for Cam and the boys and all of the family. Very sad thing. Well, have a great Memorial Day...
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Another baby in a few years?!! You better get crackin, Dallin needs a boy cousin. Memorial Day is always rainy it seems like, hope you guys can go bikin.
One of those days. Hope you're feeling better!
It is so hard to find a balance in life. I worked until Matthew was two and I felt like I never did anything good enough - when I was at work I wished I was at home, and when I was home I was always worrying about the things that I hadn't done, and dreading the next time I had to go to work. Now that I get to stay home I absolutely love it, although there are days that I think I would love to go back to work, but those moments don't last very long. Sometimes I don't feel like I accomplish anything - even though I am taking care of two kids and a household all day. Whew! Where did all that come from? Sorry about the eternally long post and I hope that something works out for you soon. Your Addy is soo beautiful, and I am absolutely sure that you are a wonderful mom, whether you stay at home full time or not.
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